decorus fireflies.

So. I was pondering something as usual, when I came across a rather frustrating thought.
I was thinking about solipsism. Which, in the event you don't bother with things like this is like "My mind is the only thing that i can know exists". Here, I'll grab something off wikipedia.

"given that I can only observe the behaviour of others,
how can I know that others have minds?"

But, going by this, if there is no way to guarantee that anyone else had a mind or 'exists' per se, if in the event that other people do not exist, what is the point of anything if you are the only sentient being ever? And then, if you are the only sentient being, what is the point of anyone else, or friendship or relationship?

But then, on the other side, if they do have minds, one can also ask what the point of anything is. To which I would reply "to exist, to understand, to experience" as, I believe, in life, the best things and feelings you can gain are from doing and feeling and learning. Now, don't confuse what I'm saying, you can live your life doing things because of what other people say, but ultimately, you are in control of what you do, and the consequences of that, just as you are responsible for what you believe, though outside factors effect how you come to the outcomes you do. So, living a life doing what you are told and not experiencing things for yourself and owning up to what you do and generally not completely saying "yes, I -am- in control of my own life" you are not really doing. Only acting as one feels they are supposed to. And feeling, feeling. You need to go out, and talk to strangers and try things you wouldn't normally do and let loose and fall in love and fall in hate and try things you don't like, just so you can feel everything you can. But learning oh, to understand what is happening around you and know about people and their hopes and fears and to able to explain exactly how a black hole is theorised to work and read the classics and know the new age geniuses and just to know. To be able to make informed decisions and understand what you are being told and just knowledge. It is amazing.

Thus my strange thoughts end.

Why's and Wherefore's

I have many friends,I am, what people would call a social butterfly. But of all of my friends, there are few of which are not what I would call 'Friendships of Action or Place'. That is, friendships which would exist without one linking activity, or place such as music, or school. Thus, if I were to stop playing music, stop going to school and stop writing, I would have a marked decrease in friends. However, the friends I have that are friends purely due to a love of character, that would continue thriving if common hobbies were removed (though the hobbies make up who the person is, so that is a bad example) we would remain friends. Therefore, I do not simple love the characteristics of the person, but that person as themselves, their moods, and their hobbies and their desires and aspirations, I love the person as the person, and I am friends with them because of that. But there are some people who as you first converse with going over those initial why's and wherefore's that just 'click' per se. I have been lucky enough to meet two of these people. And though I'm rather positive that it would be marvelous for there to be some grand reason behind this, I am of the opinion that it is nothing more or less than "You can understand the way I see the world, not because I can explain my innermost self to you, but because you can see the world though my eyes, as it is the way you see the world" this feeling, though rather indescribable feeling, I think, is the key to love. To know someone completely in their innermost self behind the lies and fears and barriers is the ultimatum to the best form or romantic love or Platonic love. These types of people are not, naturally, free tickets to friendship and love, as with any type of relationship platonic or non-platonic, it still takes work, effort, understanding, compromise to know a person, their needs, wants, fears, desires. But ultimately, as far as I have experienced, these people help create the best types of friendships. They are the types of friendships where you hear "I know who you are, I understand why you think what you do, I know you are exactly yourself and I love you".
At least, as far as I know.